summer

so i geuss its summer now, right? it just sunk in for real. i was just eatig breakfast this morning and i was like: hey! its summer. i dont have school, or homework...or anything. i can do what i want.

i havn't done much this summer. i need to stay in touch with everyone. do stuff. whatever. its going to be hard though. i have a busy next couple of months. both of my parents work during the day.

on thursday i'm takig a family vacation. at first we were going to florida, then california, and i wanted to go to hawaii. )but aprently hawaii, "sucks" acording to rick :)). but its my dad's turn to choose. so we're going to cooperstown to see the HOF. which is sweet but its not like...a family vacation destination if you know what i mean. i need a beach. if there isn't a beach then it doesn't seem like a vacation. maybe its just me.

so i'll be gone somewhere-who knows. four about a week.

and then i have a day between when we get back, and i go to camp. I'm going to a UM baseball camp. its a day camp, but its for 12 hours. so i wake up really early, and i get back...i dont know its summer do the math. its two weeks of basbeall and absolutly nothing else. well, there is a break between two sessions a wek long. but over taht time i'm taking a baby sitting class, and i mowing lawns for some of my mom's vacant houses when ever i'm free. i really want to do stuuff this summer though, not so organized. just hang out with people. becauxse after that we are going on another family vacation. hopefully there's a beach there though.


i think im bcoming noctenal. every night i stay up later. just because im not tired. im staying up till like five now. and i not tired, just wide awake like i am at tis moment at...3:40. hen i sleep the day away.

im a prick huh?

so i a prick. im a huge jerk? right? nobody likes me half the time. thsts great. i dont even know what tp say. i mean... most of the time you are nice to me maya. and then you call me a jerk. and i've never even talked to u paddy. aparently im a jerk and a prick though.

and the i can beat you up thing? i didn't even start that. john adams did. JOhn and me were screwing around and he said: you wanna go max? and i thought he was just playing so i said yeah come on adam, and it escalated into a huge...thing where everyone was standing around me in teh locker romm and tellign me to punch jadams. what the hell am i supposed to do? i stand up for mysel;f and rarley do i start it. rarley. so u should shut the fuck up paddy. your antelope thing is shit. its a fucking sqaure with a circle around it. fine that was mean. but im not takeing it out cause im pissed.

and so what if i dont act my size. i dont act like a 5'0 shrimpy kid. i try not to apear that way.

and what makes me a jerk? i speak my mind! if something upsets me i'm going to comfont you. I probly say somethings i shouldn't, but owell, who doesn't? and i'm a jerk cause i too "dominant" pushy? im just trying to fit in. just trying to get in the conversation because i like to be icluded. i want to have freinds.

this happens so much! as soon as i start feeling, more socail. like i have freinds. like mostly everyone likes me....people turn around and tell me im a prick. tell me im a jerk and no girls will ever lke me and its not my apeerance. its just that im a huge prick in a little body. and taht everyone thinks that.

its ok though. i'll just stop bothering you guys. i'll just stay to my self. trying not to bother you guys and try to hang out with u over the summer. i'll just stay at home and play with the five year old next door. and play basketball by myself. i'll try not to prick anyone's life as much as possible. just sit alone and not be a jerk. and at school i'll just read in the mornings, not talk to anyone. i'l lleave right at 230. wont do any activities. i wont say anything unless im spoken to. i wont breath to loud either. know what? i'll just move to a difrent school i'll just start over with people who dont think im a prick. who dont think im a jerk.


bye

Viggy's Summer Partay!

yesderday was vigg's pparty. it was actually a really fun party. there wern't alot of people there. like 23 about. a lot of her freinds from ohio, (i dont remember their names), and camile from teaxass. the seven boys that were there all agreed that they were, apealing in sight. yeah, let's put it that way.
katie sims wasn't there. i was planning on asking her out. I know she would have said no. but im telling myself that at least i'll know hwat she would have said when she ends up with someone else, i won't be kicking myself for not asking her later. so now i have to call her. meaing i have to get her cell phone number. and.. i don't know...its seems more akward asking some over the phone.

so back to the party. there was this one girl-viggy's freind. she kinda beat me up, and called me a squirt, and a shrimp. but i could tell she was just kidding. and..i don't know, again. i just never seem to be able to get the girl. getting, meaning alot of things. i don't feel like getting into it. but somehow nick ended up dancing with her at the end of the night. he always does. Real close. she just wrapped her arms around him.

am i ugly? is it my personality? or is that i am just so skiny and, "weak." like no muscle. cause i can't a lizzy,(not that i tried. barf!) if my life depended on it. and by the way, i am very strong. i've lifted weight for a year and a half. and it shows. it may not be like nolans arm. but its pretty damn defined.

this summer i gonna drink three glasses of milk a day. and lift weights everyday. (im getting a new set of wieghts for my birthday) and im going to lode up on suagr and fats and meats before bed b/c then it doesn't burn, it will settle on my bones and then ill have some skin on my bones (maya!)

then next year ill be able to get a girl like katie, or have someone at the end of the night.

1st post

my first post..........
what to say, what to say?


maya has me really depressed. i have to explain now don't i? its a blog. damn it! that kinda sucks....well its ganna make me sound like a douche so i'll just wait until after the vigsters party and cry the words into the kebaord then. haha.

whats with this myspace and facebook thing? god i hate it so much. i just lke blogging. i dont get what everyone gets from...doing all that crap.

abigails [arty was fun. i was the only boy there. i won a lipgloss. yeah, who's da best?!
viggy still ows me a a slap and a squeeze. you know what i mean.